This sucks

So Monday is supposed to be my quit day. I've been gearing up for it and preparing.

I had a good weekend and had very few smokes all weekend. I ran out and didnt buy anymore.

So I went to work today for the first time ever with no smokes in my pocket.

I had a rough morning filled with anxiety and frustration. I tried to look at all the websites describing the 101 ways to die because of smoking. But I was doing it. I was doing great.

Until I went to lunch. As we pulled to the burger joint that my buddy and I go to he was like. "Hey did I leave my sunglasses here somewhere in your truck ... some where here ... somewhere..." and then he popped the center console and I saw them. A pack of smokes that I had forgotten about for whatever reason right there in my truck.

Great.

We got back from lunch and now all I could think about was going out there and getting one.

So I did.

And it was great. The most stale smoke ever. Probably very disgusting and gross but I didnt care.

Now I feel like a dumbass. I almost made it. What the hell is wrong with me.

I love smoking. I hate smoking.

Guess I'll try again tomorrow.

This sucks. I'm all alone with this crap.

Just me and this stupid blog.